Shamanic Journey 2022

“No one knows our story but we know of the many stories of others.”

— Mai Ka (MK) Yang

Shamanic Journey End of Year Reflection:

No one knows our story but we know of the many stories of others.

It's only been 10 months since I've been on my shamanic journey and I have got say it's been extremely FUN despite all the hardships and tests I had went through.

My guides from the very beginning has always been like my best friends. We joked and cried with each other then we armor up and trained together. Whenever I go through tough times they adjust to my situation and make it better. Whenever something happens to them they would guide me through to solve it. They make me work through tough time only to show me how capable I am and how powerful we are as a team.

They make me sound smart only to feel dumb to remind me that learning is eternal.

Some may say being a healer is a curse but it has never been like that for me, even before I knew I was gifted. After I embarked on my journey, in my darkest moment, did it feel like a curse but within seconds I'm reminded it's a blessings, a crazy beautiful gift.

A gift to be able to hear the unheard. A gift to be able to see the unseen. A gift to be able to help the unreachable. A gift to be able to lift other up and guide them down a lighter path to a new beginning. A gift to heal wounds that were untouchable and deeper than it bled.

Through the journey of remembrance, I had been torn many times, cried many nights, and experienced a cycle of emotions. Yet, I had grown to accept my duties, to embrace who I am - spiritually and physically, and to count my blessings.

Through the portal of visitation, my sleep had been interrupted multiple times. I had been challenged and I had been of comfort. I had grown to listen not to respond but to heal and to be that of assistance.

Through the portal of time and space I had grown to understand the complexity there is to existence. The illusion that exist to challenge us.

One of the hardest challenge I had faced this year as a shaman is to relay a message from the deceased to their loved ones, especially on the weekend of their funeral. In contrast, one of the biggest celebration I had experienced is to be able to relay a message from a yet to be born child to it's soon to be parents.

Life is definitely bittersweet.

Through these 10 months, I cannot lie that I hadn't cried nor suffocate from confusions, anxiety, and fears, or cursed at my guides, the universe, and God for what I had gone through but it was worth it. In moments of uncertainty I learned to trust myself and my journey. I learned to be presence and to go with the flow. I learned to embrace my emotions and to be patient.

I apologized for my flaws and for my sins. I begged to take on others' pains and suffering only to curse at everyone again and then apologize because I know that within a heartbeat I wouldn't mind experiencing it all over again. I had to learn to control my emotions and to accept each surprises as they come.

I thanked my team for their patience, their love, their care, and their kindness. I thanked the universe and I thanked the divine creator for blessings me with such wonderful people, team, and gift.

Similar to continuous cycle of learning, every path we take is eternal. A journey will never end for if it end it's the end of growth. An awakening will always be an unending cycle for it's part of our growth.

When we learned and healed we jumped timeline. We advanced. When we learned and healed we raised our vibration. The higher the vibration the deeper the fall and the heavier the consequences are. It's a price we're willing pay.

As a spiritual healer, healing doesn't always come easy. We have to learn to heal ourselves first - to strengthen our mentality and to overcome our trauma.

The unknown is always scary but what's scarier is knowing too much. There's only so much we can do in terms of prevention, like that of a doctor. We can't save everyone. We try our best to not let anyone live in regrets yet we get shamed for our gift and we get celebrated when there's miracles.

I can't speak for others but I can speak for myself. This is a crazy beautiful journey. It taught me that sometimes we have to see things in black and white to appreciate the burst of color there is to life.

As we seal 2022, I look forward to more growth on this journey. This shamanic journey is definitely not an easy one. In fact, it's a very lonely one but with each light I run into leaves a glimpse of light that brighten up my path and makes it a little less lonelier.

Thank you all for following me on my journey this far. I hope you at least learn something from it too. Please know that this is strictly speaking from my personal experiences and does not reflect another healer's journey.

Sending love, light, and blessings to all!

Mai Ka (MK) Yang