Why I’m Here
Mid-Year Reflection
Work & Life
As business picked up so did my training and as I am reflecting on all the things that had happened recently and those that had happened within the past few years it got me feeling some sort of way.
Having gone through what I went through I often question why my heart would choose to soften overtime than harden. I would often ask where love and healing is and all I get back is silence. But, in these silences I connected with those who suffered the most. Hidden in these silences I found the strength to stand up for them and for me, and with them. Now, when I ask why, I would hear, "That's why you're here," and every single time I hear such a response I am reminded of the many many generations it took to get to where we are today and the many many generations it's going to take to finally break off such curses.
Doing the work I do sometimes I don't even know if I should be grateful I get to do it or if I should feel honored. At times it feels like a punishment, a curse. At times it feels like a relief being able to do such beautiful work and it is in these moments where I feel most honored and am grateful, "This is why I am here."
At the end of the day though my mind wanders off lost in thoughts, "How many more lives must we lose in order for us to learn what true respect and harmony is? What must it take to overcome the negative ego? When will humanity learn?"
It saddens me seeing people support outsiders but when it comes to their loved ones, rather than helping them, they are judged upon as failures. When their loved one asks for support, they rather look away as if the person is invisible and call them out as attention seeker. When their loved ones are hurt and are resting they rather see them as lazy. When their loved ones are gifted they rather label them as crazy and nonsense.
It saddens me that we failed to cherish each other before it's too late. Only when it's too late do we come together and try to relive and treasure the moments that now have become memories.
It saddens me that we put fame and success above all that matters. Only when we are famous as a nation do we come together, but the moment something goes wrong everyone turns their back on one another.
It's nostalgic and sad seeing people hurt each other instead of lifting one another up repeatedly, as they continuously try to control one another. When I look at humanity and the choices we make, subconsciously, as we live through these life experiences, I question myself, "Why are people naturally so evil?"
It saddens me that it is our own community and our own home that pushes our people out when it is them, the ones we need the most.
I find bravery in the journey that these individuals take. I find strength in the light that these individuals carried. I find compassion in them. It's such a powerful thing for one to do for their community, especially when it was never where they were accepted and felt belonged. However, instead of taking this on and using it against everyone, these individuals took it upon themselves to be the change they want to see and use this as an opportunity to give back and create 10x a better environment for those coming after them. I am speechless as I watch these individuals shine.
To the beautiful souls out there standing their ground and doing the work they're called to do despite the hatred and judgment they receive, thank you for all you do. Thank you for not giving up on humanity. Thank you for remaining humble and for grounding humanity in all the little things that truly matters. Your efforts and kindness will not go unnoticed, especially by those whose life you have touched and changed. I am grateful for your existence, for your humble and beautiful heart, for your work, and all that you are and all that you do. Thank you.
