Grief

“…losing a loved one is losing a piece of me.”

— Mai Ka Yang

My dreams never cease to surprise me.

Midnight towards the early morning of yesterday I had a dream that I attended a funeral and went to the cemetery with a group of people afterward to help lay the soul to rest. I woke up trying to figure out whose funeral I was at. No information was found throughout the day. Last night, I found out that one of my relatives was laid to rest yesterday morning.

I used to see her a lot when I was younger and was once very close to one of her sons. Over the years we all became distant and within the past few years I had been having the urge to reach out to them and check up on them but couldn't. Earlier this month I found out that she passed but was unaware of when they were planning to celebrate her life.

On that morning when they sent her off, my team probably wanted me to help send her off too and be there for her family because of our relationship and the impact we have made on one another without realizing it.

Last night, I felt a surge of very strong emotions as I watched her slideshow. It was a combination of mine mixed with those of her loved ones and her very own emotions. It was bittersweet.

As I sealed the night with her in my thoughts I could only ask that she's off to greater things and that her family who are still here will be able to carry on knowing she's always with them in their hearts. May all be healed over time.

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Grief is one of the hardest things we all have to experience especially when losing a loved one. It's like losing a piece of us forever. We never really forget we just learn to live on and be ok without them.

Within the last few years our family has lost quite a few loved ones. This year in particular we laid some to rest. As an individual, it has been wonderful reuniting with everyone, but as a healer it has been quite sad and heavy, especially during moments where a lot of energies are in the same space and when the voices of the deceased echo among the cries of their living loved ones - unable to finish their farewell messages because they too are hurting during this time of separation.

For those of you who are grieving. Cry and embrace the healing process if you may but never stop living. Your loved ones never really left. They're with you always, in spirit - guiding you and protecting you. When you're hurt and crying out to them. They're also hurting and crying out to you. So continue to live your life to the fullest, if you don't want to, do it for them. All they would have wanted for you is to be alive and happy.

For those of you who are empaths, remember to protect your energy and ground yourself. If it's felt, embrace it but don't attach to it. It's not yours to carry.

Sending everyone light and love during this time of heaviness.

Mai Ka (MK) Yang